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I am the Darkness, it Sleeps in your Mind, the Shadows that Haunt you at Night...
 

 

I wrote my new and improved résumé.

 

I freaked out for the hundredth time about the job interview I have on Thursday.

 

I worried about how I'm going to pay rent this fortnight AND have enough money to survive another fortnight.

 

I wondered what my friends were doing.

 

I stressed about TAFE work.

 

I got excited about how cool it would be if I got this job.

 

I day dreamed about what it will be like when I got o my first Bartending competition.

 

I pondered the Meaning of Life and the basics of Metaphysics.

 

I wished I had a car and some more money.

 

I also wished I had something to eat.

 

I went onto Explorer Country.com to look for local knowledge about Orange and found nothing.

 

I freaked out some more about my increasing pile of TAFE work with due days looming.

 

I got freaked out again by the prospective job.

 

I stressed heaps about all little random things that I don't even remember.

 

 

Overall Mood:

Surprisingly Good. Feel a little down, a little tired, but I also feel rather contwent with what I've achieved today. As stressed and nervous and anxious and freaked out I am about all the things I've mentioned, I am also really really excited. Kinda scared though. And i think that's what been holding me back all this time. So really I should take my own advice and get rid of that fear. It's just a fear of people, a fear of judgement, a fear of the unknown, a fear of failure... A big fear actually. But I need o conquer in order to succeed. Clearly. So yeah.

Wish me luck!

I'm gunna bum around on the net for another hour before I go up and see my teacher and ask his opinion on my résumé. Woople.

 

Toodles Doodles!   (( sneh sneh sneh ))

Matty D.

 

 
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