I developed a theory.

I set myself unrealistic expectations and standards you see, and there is a reason I believe.

See I've suffered heart ache with relationships all my life.

With the girlies before I knew I was gay.

And definately with the guys.

So nowadays I find myself falling for straighties.

You can see where those infatuations lead.

No where.

So you see, I reckon I fall for them fully knowing I will never have them, thus I will never be in a relationship and therefore will not get heart broken.

The only problem is that with falling in love with straight guys, I end up getting hurt anyway.

Staying up late at night wishing I wasn't so alone.

Feeling empty and cold in my heart.

Having enough love to share with the world, but no one who returns it to me.

Sure I love all my frinds like family. And they love me back.

But the love between two people when they are in a relationship is different and I crave it.

I hunger for it.

And I find myself feeling the equivalent to an third world country in my starvation for love.

So perhaps the answer to my problem is simple.

Stop being scared of getting hurt.

Stop avoiding the possibility of hurt.

Perhaps take some of my own advice...

"If you do not try you set yourself up for failure before it begins.

If you try, at least you have a chance."

And the age old classic.

"You gotta be in it to win it."

I think It's time I did a self-overhaul.

Sit down and work myself out (again) and get over this fear of rejection and pain.

Because I have discovered that this fear is holding me back.

And that also ties in with something I have always said.

"Don't let your fears hold you back from your dreams."

So the moral of this story, and the lesson or piece of advice I give is that.

"Don't let your fears hold you back from your dreams."